Saix Journal - Vatheon
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croceamorsMay 26
It feels very strange to be alive. I didn't expect for that to be something possible after the Dusks reported that Axel was dead. Then again, in this strange place, he's alive as well. Axel, Roxas, Demyx, Namine, Kairi, and the Keyblade Wielder, Sora. I seem to be stuck with quite a few undesirable people.
I've done some investigating into this place and it lead me to a man named Darkleer. He told me what he could to explain this place beyond what the brochure offered. I'll be sure to keep up to date with the information that's found regarding the scientists and other things. If they can change the reality of this place, and bring the dead back to life, perhaps this could be an alternative route to getting my heart back again. It's better than sitting around doing nothing.
I'm still recovering from my battle with Sora. Cure can only do so much. Perhaps I should never have fought Axel upon my arrival but the urge was a strong one. I couldn't stand to see him again after everything he did. I wish I could have been there to watch him fade away. It feels like something I should have witnessed. I don't know if it's because of some ridiculous concept of vengeance, or if it's 'Isa'.
I should find a more permanent residence than this hotel.
May 27
I found a house in a neighborhood that was available. It was listed as '7'. Perhaps I've grown too used to that number. It's big and empty but I'm sure I'll be able to utilize the space better than what we did with the Castle. That place seemed to have a mind of its own.
Maybe I can store stargazing equipment in there. It's been a long time since I've gotten to know a different World's moon. I should take advantage of the opportunity.
May 31
I did a brief sweep of the city today. Besides the main city itself, it is connected to four other areas, all shielded by their own unique barriers to keep the sea out. The forest seems to be inhabited by a few foreigners. The pirate ship is nothing more than a nuisance although I imagine there is an interesting reason for it being there. The park seems to be the most mundane quadrant. There is a cave system inhabited by some enormous troll. I decided not to bother with it for the time being.
June 7
To help adjust foreigners to this World, a festival is often held although from what I gathered they are usually not so large. It was also a good time to investigate the island as well, so I saw no reason to avoid it. There seem to be quite a few foreigner run organizations as well including a host club. Even I nearly managed to laugh when I saw that our former member Roxas had gotten himself involved in the Host Club. He was part of a date auction. I made a bid on him mostly to see him squirm, although I must admit I was toying with the idea of how aggravated Axel would get in regards to things.
The whole affair reminded me a little bit of the Garden. It was still far too different. The fruits and fish offered weren't the same, and there weren't as nearly many flowers as Radiant Garden events. I never thought I would be one for nostalgia but even I found myself indulging for just a little while. I ran into a golden retriever while I was out and now it's followed me back to my house. He wouldn't stop scratching at the door, so I've decided to save the wood and let him stay for the night. Perhaps tomorrow I'll inquire if anyone wants him. Someone like me shouldn't be taking care of a dog. That sort of matter is for someone with a Heart.
I've treated my leg as best as I could after I got into a fight with Axel. I won, of course. I should have just let him fade away. I should have finished the job.
I gave the star plush I took from him to the dog. He seems to like it. He can take it with him to whoever becomes his new owner.
June 8
I've decided to keep the dog, whose name is now New Moon. I should have chosen a better name than that. It seems lazy. A man named Crocker offered to keep him, and I suppose I'll keep him in mind in case this becomes too much of a hassle.
Roxas contacted me. Apparently he didn't take kindly to what I did to Axel. Now if only Axel could have the same sense of preservation for his life that his so called "friend" does. He came to heckle me about why I let him go. I wish he would stop lying to me. That's all he's capable of, as a Nobody and especially one of his nature.
He told me that, as Axel, he never saw me as a friend.
I'm not sure what I'm experiencing and what memory of Isa's it's being drawn from. If I had to attribute it to some remembered emotion, perhaps it would be disappointment? I can't possibly fake betrayal. It's no surprise. He's already betrayed me numerous times by now. I always thought I was the level headed one between the two of us. How could I have deluded myself into thinking he mattered so much for ten years? I really am a fool. That just proves what value friendship really has. Isa was too much of a romantic.
He says he wants to fix things, but that's the same thing he said ten years ago. I hope he doesn't expect for me to fall for such a lie like that again. Despite what the rest of the Organization thought, I was more than a brainless dog. I can learn from my mistakes. He clearly tried to ease things between us again. I signed his cast to get him out of my house.
New Moon is pacing. I should get us both dinner.
June 15
I'm redoing the paint in one of the spare rooms. I suppose I'll make it an office. There's something in the Nostalgia Nook I want to find. I'll go down there in the afternoon.
June 19
I heavily dislike tophats.
July 7
Terra, a keyblade wielder from the Land of Departure who knew Ven... Why does he remind me so much of someone? With the fever no longer clouding my mind, I can be sure of it. It's just outside the reach of my memory. I feel as though I should know him. He managed to visit Radiant Garden once, when it was still known by that name. With how Vatheon works, I would normally attribute this to its strange grasp on time. However it still doesn't seem quite right.
Something strange is going on here. I need to find out more about Terra, and just why he triggers something n my memory.
July 10
The moon waxed crescent last night. She is split, her energy shifting in two opposite directions. There is more to know of this place. We didn't fight for once. It was quiet. If it was quiet more, maybe things could be how they used to. But there's no going back.
July 26
Maybe it's less you I miss and more my own ignorance to what you thought of me. I never suspected anything when I looked at you in the days where we could still do missions together. Maybe I should have gave up a long time ago. That man still deserves to die yet maybe I never had any choice to begin with.
New Moon is whining. I think the pain medication is kicking in. I should go to sleep.
It feels very strange to be alive. I didn't expect for that to be something possible after the Dusks reported that Axel was dead. Then again, in this strange place, he's alive as well. Axel, Roxas, Demyx, Namine, Kairi, and the Keyblade Wielder, Sora. I seem to be stuck with quite a few undesirable people.
I've done some investigating into this place and it lead me to a man named Darkleer. He told me what he could to explain this place beyond what the brochure offered. I'll be sure to keep up to date with the information that's found regarding the scientists and other things. If they can change the reality of this place, and bring the dead back to life, perhaps this could be an alternative route to getting my heart back again. It's better than sitting around doing nothing.
I'm still recovering from my battle with Sora. Cure can only do so much. Perhaps I should never have fought Axel upon my arrival but the urge was a strong one. I couldn't stand to see him again after everything he did. I wish I could have been there to watch him fade away. It feels like something I should have witnessed. I don't know if it's because of some ridiculous concept of vengeance, or if it's 'Isa'.
I should find a more permanent residence than this hotel.
May 27
I found a house in a neighborhood that was available. It was listed as '7'. Perhaps I've grown too used to that number. It's big and empty but I'm sure I'll be able to utilize the space better than what we did with the Castle. That place seemed to have a mind of its own.
Maybe I can store stargazing equipment in there. It's been a long time since I've gotten to know a different World's moon. I should take advantage of the opportunity.
May 31
I did a brief sweep of the city today. Besides the main city itself, it is connected to four other areas, all shielded by their own unique barriers to keep the sea out. The forest seems to be inhabited by a few foreigners. The pirate ship is nothing more than a nuisance although I imagine there is an interesting reason for it being there. The park seems to be the most mundane quadrant. There is a cave system inhabited by some enormous troll. I decided not to bother with it for the time being.
June 7
To help adjust foreigners to this World, a festival is often held although from what I gathered they are usually not so large. It was also a good time to investigate the island as well, so I saw no reason to avoid it. There seem to be quite a few foreigner run organizations as well including a host club. Even I nearly managed to laugh when I saw that our former member Roxas had gotten himself involved in the Host Club. He was part of a date auction. I made a bid on him mostly to see him squirm, although I must admit I was toying with the idea of how aggravated Axel would get in regards to things.
The whole affair reminded me a little bit of the Garden. It was still far too different. The fruits and fish offered weren't the same, and there weren't as nearly many flowers as Radiant Garden events. I never thought I would be one for nostalgia but even I found myself indulging for just a little while. I ran into a golden retriever while I was out and now it's followed me back to my house. He wouldn't stop scratching at the door, so I've decided to save the wood and let him stay for the night. Perhaps tomorrow I'll inquire if anyone wants him. Someone like me shouldn't be taking care of a dog. That sort of matter is for someone with a Heart.
I've treated my leg as best as I could after I got into a fight with Axel. I won, of course. I should have just let him fade away. I should have finished the job.
I gave the star plush I took from him to the dog. He seems to like it. He can take it with him to whoever becomes his new owner.
June 8
I've decided to keep the dog, whose name is now New Moon. I should have chosen a better name than that. It seems lazy. A man named Crocker offered to keep him, and I suppose I'll keep him in mind in case this becomes too much of a hassle.
Roxas contacted me. Apparently he didn't take kindly to what I did to Axel. Now if only Axel could have the same sense of preservation for his life that his so called "friend" does. He came to heckle me about why I let him go. I wish he would stop lying to me. That's all he's capable of, as a Nobody and especially one of his nature.
He told me that, as Axel, he never saw me as a friend.
I'm not sure what I'm experiencing and what memory of Isa's it's being drawn from. If I had to attribute it to some remembered emotion, perhaps it would be disappointment? I can't possibly fake betrayal. It's no surprise. He's already betrayed me numerous times by now. I always thought I was the level headed one between the two of us. How could I have deluded myself into thinking he mattered so much for ten years? I really am a fool. That just proves what value friendship really has. Isa was too much of a romantic.
He says he wants to fix things, but that's the same thing he said ten years ago. I hope he doesn't expect for me to fall for such a lie like that again. Despite what the rest of the Organization thought, I was more than a brainless dog. I can learn from my mistakes. He clearly tried to ease things between us again. I signed his cast to get him out of my house.
New Moon is pacing. I should get us both dinner.
June 15
I'm redoing the paint in one of the spare rooms. I suppose I'll make it an office. There's something in the Nostalgia Nook I want to find. I'll go down there in the afternoon.
June 19
I heavily dislike tophats.
July 7
Terra, a keyblade wielder from the Land of Departure who knew Ven... Why does he remind me so much of someone? With the fever no longer clouding my mind, I can be sure of it. It's just outside the reach of my memory. I feel as though I should know him. He managed to visit Radiant Garden once, when it was still known by that name. With how Vatheon works, I would normally attribute this to its strange grasp on time. However it still doesn't seem quite right.
Something strange is going on here. I need to find out more about Terra, and just why he triggers something n my memory.
July 10
The moon waxed crescent last night. She is split, her energy shifting in two opposite directions. There is more to know of this place. We didn't fight for once. It was quiet. If it was quiet more, maybe things could be how they used to. But there's no going back.
July 26
Maybe it's less you I miss and more my own ignorance to what you thought of me. I never suspected anything when I looked at you in the days where we could still do missions together. Maybe I should have gave up a long time ago. That man still deserves to die yet maybe I never had any choice to begin with.
New Moon is whining. I think the pain medication is kicking in. I should go to sleep.
